It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..

Look, your whole life is ahead of you.
Not the fun part. That part’s over. But the other part. -Seth Myers

Sometimes, you use a word your whole life without having really experienced it for yourself. For me, that word was bittersweet. I might have gotten a tiny taste of it when I graduated high school and left my hometown, but I got the full dose when I turned my tassel at Auburn University on August 4, 2014. I had never felt anything like what I was feeling: equal parts elation for my future in graduate school at University of West Georgia and literal heartbreak that my time at Auburn was over. I told myself that I would never love a school like I loved Auburn and that I would come to UWG and refuse to make any friends. I wanted to hang on to my Auburn life and nothing else.

The thing is, I lie to myself. Though it is true I will never feel another school in my veins the way I feel Auburn, there is no version of Brianna Cofield that will not make friends in any situation. Even on the worst day, I am a person who craves companionship and I have already begun to get to know people in my cohort at UWG.

Still, living anywhere but Auburn feels strange and wrong… I’ve compared it to being at summer camp. It feels like at any moment I will pack up my things and go back to Auburn and resume what has been my life. It’s like at any time I will go back to my couch, invite my boyfriend over like always, and watch goofy movies and TV shows with him until I ultimately fall asleep and he gets bored of watching alone and wakes me up to make me go to bed so he can leave.

That, however, is not my life anymore. At least it isn’t for now. We all must grow up and move on, and it is both extremely uncomfortable and extremely rewarding to pursue your dreams. To even be accepted to graduate school in my area of Communication Disorders/ Speech- Language Pathology is nothing short of a blessing. I realized that any apprehension to go on with this next step in my education was downright ungrateful and even disrespectful to those who were not as fortunate as I was in the admissions process.

So, with a new attitude towards the challenge that is grad school, I begin to dive in fully to this next step in my life. It is definitely a journey to have to start over on a new campus in a town that neither my boyfriend or my best friends from the past four years live in, but I am here and I am doing it. I will not stop until I am Brianna Cofield, CCC-SLP.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you’ve imagined! -Henry David Thoreau




2 thoughts on “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..

  1. Brittney says:

    Maybe you should just become an author/writer/journalist! That was very beautifully written. Wait until you have to watch your children grow up! It’s extremely bittersweet!


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